Thursday, January 8, 2009

[Music], Trains, and Automobiles

Music to me is so special and important.  Whoever says that music doesn't affect them is either downright crazy or is lying.  This is my opinion on the matter...I have been on both sides of the spectrum.  I have listened to music (and maybe sometimes still do...SOMETIMES) that we have been advised not to listen to.  What can I say?  I love hip hop and rap!  I love to dance and it definitely gets me moving, you know?  Anyway, I have noticed that at times when I listen to music that is has less than appropriate lyrics (edited, of course), I become more rebellious in a way (me, rebellious?  I have no idea!).  Okay, so maybe I'm not going to rob a bank or anything, but I have noticed that I become more aggressive, more defensive, and downright crabby.  And I KNOW it is because of my music.  On the other side, when I listen to more calming and happier music (i.e. Josh Groban, Colbie Callait, Coldplay, etc.) I AM happier.  This is especially evident when I am driving.  I know this might be hard for you to picture (or easy, if you've ever been in the car with me) but when I am listening to rap, rock, or anything a little more hardcore, I am like the most aggressive driver ever!  I am yelling at cars to move out of my way, I tailgate, and I feel like I'm always in a hurry to get somewhere.  But when I listen to the good stuff, I am calm and I am a more curteous driver.  Maybe it is just me who is making all of this up in my head, but I really don't think so.  It's just something I've noticed in my short earthly existence.

So, when I'm listening to music I generally listen to the lyrics as well.  There are so many songs that have really struck a chord with me that I will probably share in this blog.  I feel that music is a great form of expression and I wish I had the talent to create it.  Though I do not, I have the talent to listen and appreciate great music.  Here is one such song.  It is called "Stop This Train" by one of my favorite musicians of all time, John Mayer.  His lyrics are so deeply personal and meaningful that I just really love his music.  Here are the lyrics:

No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
I try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop the train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it
I don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game 
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight"
"You'll renegotiate"
"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
And don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"

Once in a while, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when your driving away in the dark
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

Great, huh?  I love this song because I first heard it during my senior year at BYU.  It was a time when I was far away from home, almost done with college, and I didn't know what was going to happen after.  I didn't really take the time to think about after college.  I was just trying to get through it!  And then this time in my life came and I was so confused.  This song just spoke to me in a way that I will never forget, and it's really hard for me to describe, but I'll try.

We all have those moments where we realize that life is going by so fast that we just want it to slow down, or stop where it's at and go back to a time when things were far more simple.  We realize that our parents aren't going to be around forever and we are not kids anymore.  We are the adults.  The future of the world is in OUR hands.  It is a very scary thought, indeed.  But you know what?  We can't stop it.  Time never stands still.  There will also come a time when we will look back and realize that the time we have left on this earth is coming to a close.  We will be faced with looking back on our lives and see what we have done with our time.  We need to live each day so that we have no regrets.  Of course there will be ups and downs and loop-dee-loops along the course, but it will be worth it.  It IS worth it.  We just have to enjoy the ride.  :)